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You're Not Welcome
04:48
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What the hell is destiny
Bleeding hearts and broken dreams
Meaningless as anything
Find it where you will
Indecisive cataclysm
Foundations made to break
Only took my everything for
The Savior then to say mistake
No awakening
You've forsaken my name
The power to turn me cold
(The power to make me whole)
The will to break me
I said you're not welcome here
No saving a silent requiem
No more coming back this time
So long and have a good life
Want to build my everything
Will I really have to give it all
Determination frozen, paralyzed
If I broke your heart I swear I apologize
Feeling shaken
I thought I knew it to be
But then I saw the side of you
The one that I run from
The ugly and cold
Tell it all to me
What could we have been
Words are like a sheet
Only paper thin
Cuz I need more
More strength inside
My will aligned
To more than a fleeting chance at my happiness
I said you're not welcome here
No saving a silent requiem
No more coming back this time
So long and have a good life
Goodbye
We failed our promise
Let go and let it die
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2. |
Insatiable
06:32
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These inner eyes reveal what's within
Ambition I’m eager to tend
Infatuation wins
Without a pathway to an end
Caught in between
I’m blind yet I see
The faces I’m leaving behind
The tension pulls and winds
Waiting for the right design
Break the binds to my chamber
Deaf to the voices that formed me
Everyone is a stranger
Their echoes dim and distorting
I’ve seen the others turn their heads and rest their eyes
But I’ll be more, show them more
I’ve had a taste of what it takes to win the prize
I’m reaching for
I’m ready for what I’ll endure
The ends justify more than I realized
A small sacrifice
Fragments life
Consumed in the fire
The conquest of mind
Any barriers that remain will fall
As I build this pathway unabated
Compounding understanding,
Funneling reason into the final pieces
Demanding an image created.
I feel it changing the way I talk
The lengths to which I’ve gone can’t be overstated
The vision taking shape it
Begins to reveal its secrets.
A facsimile of what I’ve been working toward.
Inhumane. Obsessed.
What it takes to reach the end
Insane. Possessed.
What it takes to reach the end
I’ve seen the others turn their heads and rest their eyes
But I’ll be more, show them more
I’ve seen the future and now I will bide my time
Waiting for them to perform what I’ve ensured
Mastery of fate
Moral compass fades
Ravenous soul remains
Devouring everything
I’ve used so many lives
To bring this dream to life
I can’t stop now
The end grows near
My plans are sound
My acts severe
The hour is far too late
The pieces fall into place
Wanton disdain
For all other fates
As all my dreams begin to culminate
Farewell to living any normal life
I’ve found more
Conquered more
I got it all but I’ll still take another bite
To fill my soul
To fill my soul
Blank skies ahead
What else is left for these empty hands?
Unequal trade
My whole fucking life
For one dream to end
Nothing has changed
What have I gained?
The hunger remains
Forced to turn my head
Forced to turn and face the trail of ash I have lead
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3. |
House of Cards
06:14
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No end
You build your house of cards again
Scared of the pain that waits outside your prison
Afraid to say you do not understand it
All you see is what you make
All you know betrayed
Circle of despair and hatred
Take you to your grave
Mouthing words but nothings coming out
No more reason
Trapped inside your comforting place
Peaceful on the surface
Truth will beckon you to your grave
No end
You build your house of cards again
Scared of the pain that waits outside your prison
Afraid to say you do not understand it
All you see is what you make
(What is right)
Crack the mirror and play someone else
(All this time)
Can’t you try to save yourself
(What is wrong)
Scorched your friends then hide in a shell
(Dissonance)
Then you wonder why your hell
Lives with you for life
Your creation torments you
Feel your mind ripped apart
By the maggots you won't remove
No end
You build your house of cards again
Scared of the pain that waits outside your prison
Afraid to say you do not understand it
All you see is what you make
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4. |
Vision
08:38
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Breathe the chill of this desolate place where I reside
Blankly stare repeating aphorisms slowly
Life leaves with every sigh
Know thy name
Repeat again
Called by shame
Ignore my friend
No escape from empty
Come to me, come to me
I am tired from all of these
Fantasies, make believe
You control and demean
No releasing
Never be, Never see
Kill my dreams sadistically
Bury me, bury me
When I see it again, don't know if I can take it
Uptight, pure white
Expectation betrays my only remaining
Birth rite, live life
Can I live it again with death weighing down
For visions you can trade the day
Some sacrifices are mistakes
Night time
Resting still
Heavy eyes
Weigh down the will
I know something's lurking
Will never sleep, leave me in peace
Oh watchful one
Even in my deepest dreams, suppressing me
Oh why
What do you want from me
My soul is screaming for why
What do you want from me
My mind was yours
What did you leave of me
My body writhing on the floor
What did you give to me
I gave you a reason to rise
Your Enemy is your reason to live
You restrain yourself to escape the inescapable
Come to me, come to me
I am tired from all of these
Fantasies, make believe
You control and demean
No releasing
Never be, Never see
Kill my dreams sadistically
Bury me, bury me
When I see it again, don't know if I can take it
You were always looking for a sign to live
You reject me every time I give
The time is wasting like your mind and soul
I'll laugh each time you think you have control
Come to me, come to me
I am tired from all of these
Fantasies, make believe
You control and demean
No releasing
Never be, Never see
Kill my dreams sadistically
Bury me, bury me
When I see it again, don't know if I can take it
Death bearing soul
You'll have to face me if want your control
Welcome to the sunny side of life and behold
It's wrestle with me or remain in the cold
It's the only choice you have
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5. |
Codename It
05:05
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Let us play the game
Russian roulette of liars
Any word you say
Will be repaid with fire
Feigning for the fame
All the words will divide us
Keep ourselves in chains
Wrought from anger and mire
Despising our own
Different names
Yet all the same
Will our sins be paid through blood and rage
Talk to me
Please help me know I’m sane
Please help me know it will change
Buried too deep to dig out from the layers of lies
What’s right
What’s wrong
We feed the beast again and again
This night drowns out color
Drones serve one another
It feeds the beast again and again and again and again and again
Different names
Yet all the same
Break me make me obey
Defiance is my pain
Different shades of the grey that entwines us
All afraid from the game that divides us
All I crave is somewhere safe
Surrendered my will to the giants
Now I’ve become that which I hate
Matured to a shell of a natural fake
My will is not my own
Adrift is now my home
I’m moored to the everchanging right and wrong
They said I’m not welcome here
Render their disgraces and all them faceless
I gave up my identity
All that I believed
Just to be depleted
Eaten, spit out, cheated
Broken, mangled
Empty mannequin you made
Effigy’s aflame
Now the beast has been sated
Til it feeds again
And the next one is fated
This night neverending
Consumes us all
Doesn’t matter how you try
Nothing in it will survive
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6. |
Go Full Epic
08:57
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(Instrumental)
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7. |
Standing Before the Fall
13:19
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Watching the waves escape to find their ending
Standing above in expectation
Fighting the horror to acquaint with them
Passionate lights I've lit from precious moments
Only to dwindle to a headstone
How do the moments make you more a man
Life escapes before you know
Tell me what I have to show
My name is unknown
What good are deeds when in the end you're alone
I gave all I am
No parades and no symphonies
To see a smile was worth the while for me
I healed souls that bleed
I fought all my days
While my comrades had fame
Contribution with no credit to my name
Well we all die the same
Why am I crying
Would it only take a taste
The music from below screams it's too late
I lived a million lives and still don't know me
This worthless prophet tells his fables
How does living make you more of a man
I've seen time
Have I wasted mine
What’s worth mean before I die?
Days slipped away
Would fame have been a mistake
Surreal regret as I feel my conscience fading
I'm too numb to keep on waiting
Would fame have been a mistake
Given all to others only to be broken down
Anxiety grinding me
Doubled over hiding
The sorrow seethes consuming me
Feed my self-deriding
Knock me out, put me to sleep
No more pull tonight
End this
Twisted inside by the choice
We decide
All our lives
Why not end repetition
Imagine a world
With no imagining
Pain is volition
Seeking the void
So I avoid
Every fucking decision
The Final Decision to take me away
Take me to my grave
Pain slips away
When you suddenly kill your mistakes
My deeds were a lie
My meaning for dying, my willing to die
Why breathe air when the river's below
My last decision
All the the lights casting shadows that grow
Light creates my flight
Flying, I'm falling
What rush from the last of air
Hear all them calling
The famed and broken
Beggars and heirs
Freed from my ground
Terminal velocity is loud
Now my body and soul have found common ground
Given all away
Would fame have been a mistake
Surreal regret as I feel my conscience fading
Not much longer to be waiting
This may have been a mistake
Done with serving others only to be broken
Smashing into the void
Embrace the water's silence
Making my Final Choice
My peaceful sleep in violence
Feeling my lungs await their final ending
Questioning all my expectation my pain
Fought for the horror breathing water cold
All of my life I fought to keep them living
Only to bite the bullet by my envy
I'm trading nothing for my nothingness
I made a mistake
One of a million
The drowning makes me shake
I love and I hate them
I'm doubting why I came
I came here to leave them
Someone knows my name
But the wrong ones proclaimed it
Why am I dying
I've only needed peace and reason
The music of life cries
The water pulls me in
But my life has just began
I see now the depths of pain
I know now someone knows my name
Claw for life as I feel my conscience fading
There's no time to keep on waiting
Pain slips away
When I breathe life once again
A real regret to deny those I was saving
All my life is meant for saving
Resting upon the shore
I clear my lungs of anger
Open my eyes to more
Than living as a stranger
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